How Are You Hiding From Yourself
In one way or another, we all have parts of ourselves that we'd like to avoid—be that things we once did, what we said, or simply old ways of being we wish we could forget.
But the degree to which we are able to feel peace in the present moment directly relates to the degree to which we can make peace with our past.
This is an idea that tends to be easiest to understand when it’s directed at others. (We’ve all heard that saying about drinking poison and expecting another person to die.) But how often do we take the time to think about what we’ve left unforgiven in ourselves.
The truth is, we will never be able to erase the parts of ourselves that we find unsavory. In fact, the more we try, the noisier those parts tend to become.
Wholeness requires us to embrace everything. And these versions of ourselves who made the so-called mistakes are also the ones who got us to where we are today. For all that they might not have known, we can count on the fact that they were open and brave enough to take their lessons and let them carry us forward.
The more we allow ourselves to honor and acknowledge that part of the story, the easier it will be to see these parts with the love and understanding needed to bring us back to wholeness.
To explore this idea further, try asking yourself the following questions:
What actions, experiences, or phases would I rather avoid thinking of or try to forget altogether?
How did this play a role (however big or small) in bringing me to where I am today? What lessons, strengths, or understandings came with it?
What would it feel like to give this part of myself the same unconditional love I would give a child—to acknowledge that this part of myself was doing the best it could with what they knew at that time?